too pretty to frown ▼ moon and stars eyesmile

As much as I want to spend today just lazing around ,
I have to go back to the literature texts .

Suddenly , it's so important to me bcs I've dropped combined humanities .
Xuan Wen was discouraging me from it .
And it was difficult to convince her that I really can't do it .
All my life , I've been taught to be the best .
And now , life throws a stupid subject that I can never score in .
Yet another obstacle that I can never overcome .
It might be cowardly of me to just run away from problems , but I don't give a F .

Eventhough Parents have never voiced it out , I know .
I know they think I'm useless .
Brother is a genius , he's like that guy in our batch .
They get good grades top the cohort , effortlessly .
What about me ? I struggle day and night just to get a decent grade .
And every Saturday , I have to send him to his religious class .
For God's sake , he's 10 already .
Mum insists that he's careless whenever he's crossing the road .
Yea , make that boy dependent on us .

Sister thinks her life is unfair . I've read her blog .
There was a particular post that stood out .
She talks about how Parents didn't let her go to an overseas trip .
Whining away about how I was granted the permission two years ago .
My trip was cancelled anyw , so why bother Sister ?
If only she knew . If only she knew .
Mum and I were having a heart-to-heart talk about her yesterday .
She said that Sister was delusional , wanting to get into the express stream .
I just kept quiet . I know she can do it , it's just that she's lazy to study .
I even made a bet with her three years ago .
If she gets a higher aggegrate than mine , I'll give her 10bucks .
And I know she remembers the bet .



Ohwell . I should stop whining so much .
So far , O's has been tricky .
English was the usual , but I managed to finish my essays .
I'm pissed at myself for the careless mistakes in maths papers .
Please oh please , at least a pass for Chemistry .

Pfffffffffft , why must I feel depressed at a time like this . Such bad timing .
Fang's up .
XOXO


My tummy is making it impossible for me to sleep .
Nervous ttm .
Fang's up .
XOXO

Amazing episode ♥

And I might drive myself insane ,
If those lips aren't speaking my name .
Fang's up .
XOXO

Much loves to Asyiqin ♥
Thankyou babe , for understanding me insideout . 3years10months of bestfriendship , and counting .

Andyes Syuhada , I love you too ♥
Thankyou for making me laugh when others couldn't . You're like a ray of hope , so don't be too depressed okay sheep ? I know you can do it .

TM ♥
We need to have a date , after we're done !
LOADS OF CATCHING UPZSXC TO DO ^^

Who am I trying to kid , seriously .
Hiatus ? Pffffft ♥
So , I'm back lovely peepos .
I promise you , I've studied for the day already .
Studied so much until my head feels like it could just go poof .

Yesterday was a horrible day ):
Family wanted to go to Geylang , to buy nuggets .
WATASHIT MUCH; I forgo-ed studying Biology for nuggets --
Popped by favouriteauntie's house .
Mum pestered me to walk around the neighbourhood .
Asking for the prices of (insert item here) , with Sister and CousinJ .
Something happened here , which made me hate malecousins even more than ever ♥
Bus-ed to Woodlands and I swear ,
my head felt like exploding and puke was threatening to force its way out .

Tears were just welling up , as I recalled everyone's reactions .
It's just me , being my sensitive self , and yet , you're making fun of it .
Family is forever ? I don't believe in it , if all they do is criticize .
CousinH , I admire you ♥

Fuckshit seriously .
You're trying to advise me and stuff , WHILE YOU'RE SMOKING ?!
Such a great rolemodel you are , pffft .
Fang's up .
XOXO


Had to go home early today; Mum wanted to visit Nenek's grave .
I didn't want to tag along bcs I don't want to face up to reality .
Yea , I'm stupid .
Fang's up .
XOXO


9minutes of major awesome-ness , which I could never do ♥
But I find it weird that some of them likes to pop out of nowhere , while the person is bboying .
Like hello , give that damn guy his much deserved spotlight please .
Well , maybe it's the world of bboying , I would never know .



What I do know is that , this is their passion .
And nothing people say/do is gnna change that .
Park Jaebum , you're my idol ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


HIATUS BABY ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


deleted. my young self is so embarrassing.
/facepalm/
Fang's up .
XOXO


This is a rabbit , isn't it ?
Why does it look so tame , I WANT ONE :/



BRB , PUKING ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


The white one please ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


I swear , if I don't get a pass for Chemistry , I'm gnna burn the damn textbook .
Fang's up .
XOXO


My comfy bed ♥ , distracting me from Chemistry .
Fang's up .
XOXO


My apologies to the peepos who were chatting with me yesterday .
I feel so guilty for not replying to Khairul's question ):



I hate Parents .
Fang's up .
XOXO


F , I want her hair ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


On the way to school today , a girl smiled at me .
First thought -Oh , smile back Izyan !
By instinct , my mouth curved upwards .
The next thing that crept into my mind was -Who in the world was that ?



Nehmind , she's pretty ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


Ah F , my backbone's acting up again -'-
Fang's up .
XOXO


Yesterday's outing was fun , I swear .
Vivacity ♥ (No , this is not a typo)
Planned to have eats at Pastamania , but Parents wanted me home by 1030 .
Guess what was for dinner at home ? ^^



NOTHING .
Fang's up .
XOXO





Was planning to do some filing today .
Ended up online , whooooopsxcz ^^
Fang's up .
XOXO


My awesome nails ♥
Too bad I had to remove it due to school .
I like this photo because Mum looks stupid ^^
I can't wait to see her reaction , mehz .
Fang's up .
XOXO


I WANT TO WATCH THIS !
WHY OH WHY IS IT COMING OUT NOW ):
listen to my new favourite song; Start A Fire by Ryan Star ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO


Pissed . Got fined today . F -'-
Fang's up .
XOXO


Had a horrible nightmare last night .
And this morning , Mum was applying medicated oil on Brother's knee and foot .
(Apparently , he fell after soccer-ing with his friends . Stupud)
And it was so dejavu-ish , it freaked me out .
I almost choked on my epok-epok .



Fang's up .
XOXO


Andthus , Asyiqin and Xuan Wen found out .
Embarrassing ttm -blush-
Relieved and worried that they know about it .
I don't have to hide it from them anymore .
Yet , whenever someone discovers it before it actually becomes official ,
it doesn't happen in the end ):
I pray hard to Allah , that my superstitions will remain as that .

Fang's up .
XOXO

^ tht guy is a F-ing jerk -'-

No matter how much you insist it's for my own good , I'm a little skeptical .
Fang's up .
XOXO


Fang's up .
XOXO