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2012-01-18T23:32:00.003+08:00

A thousand apologies for posting on your blog without your permission. You may wish to delete. I believe that you know who I am.

But I can't believe you still blog. How do you make time for it? XD

I love you xoxo (I feel so girly)

This is fun writing on someone else's blog.

I-Z-Y-A-N
Shake that bun bun for your (potential) boyfriend

hehehe.

I had nothing to do so I read my old blog and creep into your blog.

Can't wait for the holidays then I'll be able to go out with you guys.

(~ºwº)~∆ Here's a dorito chip for you.

(omg if you do get angry at me for randomly posting on your blog. please tell me. >.< lol)

okie that's all.

I vill see you soon.

[a/n] lol omg i love you and you sounded so serious in the last line, it cracked me up

a post before i pass out

2012-01-15T01:00:00.001+08:00

guy on twitter shocked me by replying to my tweet
been some time since we last talked hahahaha
nothing special between us tho just mutual friends :)
fang's up
xoxo

warning: lapslock ahead

2012-01-01T23:02:00.002+08:00

okay still no laptop, but i couldn't wait so here goes.

twentyeleven.
what can i say about you, sigh. you've been pretty kind to me. made new friends, bumped into old ones. discovered a little bit more about myself. got myself in awkwardly hilarious situations. average grades and gpa. met someone. five years with bestfs.

even tho i'm still the awkward child that i am. even tho i'm still lacking as an early childhood educator, a muslim, a daughter, a sister, a friend. even tho my self esteem is still at the lowest.

despite all, twentyeleven had been a fairly okay year. twentytwelve, let's go!
fang's up.
xoxo

goodbye twentyeleven

2012-01-01T14:44:00.002+08:00

hi twentytwelve.
will do up a more /proper/ post later (when laptop is back from repairs)
fang's up .
xoxo

born on 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month

2011-11-29T20:10:00.003+08:00

No matter what, every one will love you because you are ruled by the Moon. You day dream a lot, you have a very low-self esteem, you need to have a back up for every move in your life, you are very unpredictable. You tend to change according to time and circumstances, selfish, have a very strong sense of musical and artistic talent and powerful verbal communication. You can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. Some might say you have a sixth sense. You will become a poet, writer, an artist or a business person. You are not strong in love, so your relationship will be in disarray until you settle down. If you are a girl, you will be responsible for your family. If you are a man, you tend to get involve in fights & arguments in the family. You will sacrifice your life for your family. You are gentle, intuitive with a broad vision. You make a well-balanced person.

Fang's up .
XOXO

selling

2011-11-22T20:02:00.013+08:00

hi hi hi, too lazy to start a new blog for this. have a boxful of apparels that are brand new and/or unable to wear anymore. pm me at my facebook, Izyan Rs or text me, 94873649 :)

worn once highwaisted shorts (not too sure about previous owner's no. of usage). free size (stretchable). 10$

brand new denim shorts (not too sure about previous owner's no. of usage). approx 15.5inch. 20$ negotiable.

worn once tri-colour knitted pullover (not too sure about previous owner's no. of usage). 20$ negotiable.

brand new blue/worn once yellow from jasmoda. 22$/20$

brand new snake skin wide block belt from monoduno. 22$

brand new from whatisdope. size 36; approx 23cm. 33.50$

earth

2011-11-22T00:31:00.002+08:00

hi noots.
fang's up .
xoxo

maybe i'm just blind

2011-11-20T02:48:00.003+08:00

falling in love. such a beautiful phrase.
Fang's up .
XOXO

complex

2011-11-17T12:56:00.004+08:00

in the short span of about one month, so much has changed.

i got myself a blackberry playbook, instead of a dslr. i can't really remember why i changed my mind, but the playbook is proving to be extremely useful. nowadays, i only lug the laptop on fridays (lectures the whole day ugh). other than fridays, i pretty much carry a light load everyday \0/

am slowly withdrawing from the kpop fandom. it's physically, mentally and financially exhausting. already received my first batch of fangoods and am stoked for the upcoming batches tbqh. but i've made a promise to myself to stop spending, after a bank account balance check the other day :/ so, this will probably be the last time i'll be searching around for the fangoods (or the fangoods luring me eek).

on top of that, i'll probably do a post about the clothes i've bought (sigh) after this few weeks, after all my assignments are completed. and maybe, in dec/early jan, i'll do up another post for the fangoods :)

oh, and we have a new washing machine now hehe.
Fang's up .
XOXO

black against white

2011-11-15T00:43:00.003+08:00

fainting/giddy spells are back. yesterday's felt like the worst, ever. was a little late as a result. late = couldn't meet bestf. feel like such a dick tbh. idk what to do to help her. fuck my life, am a horrible bestf.
Fang's up .
XOXO

happy birthday kavya ♥

2011-10-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

through thick and thin; through ups and downs
we've been friends/bestfs for over five years already. we've had our fair share of laughter and tears. we've witnessed the changes in the people around us. as mushy/cheesy as this sounds, i'm pretty glad that we're still close. just like that mini conversation in the cab, i really hope that we'll be bestfs until like, forever. idk okay, i want to be there when you get married and have kids. then you can hire me as a babysitter hahahahhaa okay no. i think your kids will be far more trouble than you tbh.

okay, i digress. have a great one later, you lucky noot. i hope poco knows it's your day and maybe be extra cuddly with you. and and and, what else? uhm. oh ya, i love you ♥

oh and while i was looking for a photo (omg i swear we don't have any decent photos), i stumbled upon these.
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEA (/^^)/
Fang's up .
XOXO

histories

2011-10-21T08:27:00.001+08:00

8am lecture zzz.
Really a bad time to listen to a boring lecturer.
Fang's up.
XOXO

picnic + town

2011-10-15T23:53:00.003+08:00

A summary of the picnic:
Waited half an hour for the shuttle bus in the sun.
Wasted tons of food.
Laughed at people.
Laughed at each other.
Laughed at ourselves.
Played in the water.
Got chased and splashed water at by a kid.
4 wet teens + 1 dry tuntun.
Town-ed in wet clothes.
YAY.

I'm so pissed at the fact that most branded stores do not carry my size. Whenever I'm in the mood to splurge on good quality products, I always get so frustrated at the end of the day. I always end up buying something of lower quality or worst still, come home empty handed. Is it too much to ask them to bring in smaller sizes? Good lord.
Fang's up .
XOXO

sluts and whores

2011-10-14T23:25:00.001+08:00

My life in two words: fatal obsessions.
Fang's up .
XOXO

dark circles

2011-10-12T22:05:00.003+08:00

I feel so weak nowadays.
I honestly do not know if it's because I'm getting older or am just falling ill.
Fang's up .
XOXO

you won't be there

2011-10-09T17:21:00.002+08:00

Oh, I haven't blogged about the TCP camp yet. It was amazing, to say the least. It's so different from the compulsary camps that I've been to. All the activities that we took part in, made me see the world (and the people living in it) in a slightly different light. One particular part of the whole camp struck me hard. The mentors had prepared a skit for the last day. One section of it taught us to throw away all the negative thoughts and to surround yourself with positivity as you move towards success. Corny, I know. But when one of them tore up the (negative) paper and held up the (positive) paper, I just started crying.

'ugly' to 'I'm beautiful, and so are you'

I feel sort of blessed to have attended such an inspiring camp :)
Fang's up .
XOXO

senorita

2011-10-09T17:14:00.002+08:00

It still amazes me how someone's words can easily change your mood.
Good job, you.
Fang's up .
XOXO

playtime

2011-10-05T00:44:00.004+08:00

MILE-HIGH CLUB.
Fang's up .
XOXO

whispers of the night

2011-10-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

Mum is starting to get into the habit of borrowing my stuffs. Yesterday night, she looked through my rings collection. The other day when I received my buys (!!!), she tried a few on and told me that they fit her too. Uhm ._. It seems that I will have to keep an eye out for my belongings now.

I really need to start reading the books again. I just can't seem to find the mood to do so.
Fang's up .
XOXO

'till we meet again

2011-09-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

Last day of September.
Fang's up .
XOXO

sixth sense

2011-09-25T19:24:00.004+08:00

I'll be on a mini hiatus after today. Going off for TCP camp tomorrow, which starts at 8:30 ugh. My mentor just called me, and in the middle of our conversation, I said something utterly stupid. I sound completely uneducated and dumb /headdesk/ First impressions last, don't they? Goodness.
Fang's up .
XOXO

blogging bug

2011-09-23T08:26:00.002+08:00

Huh, I'm in a good mood today, might as well make full use of it. Didn't sleep a wink last night though, so I absolutely have no idea why I'm such a happy bunny right now. Maybe I need a quick shower to dampen my mood a little. But why in the world would I do that anyway :3

I'm bubbling with excitement omg. I can't wait to see the end result but at the same time, I'm really apprehensive. What if I make a mistake and it turns out to be horrible? I pray not. I wish I could tell AND show you guys what I'm so excited about ): I need to bug my parents for the camera more often.

At the moment, I have three unread books. Correction, two unread books. I've already started reading the book that I bought (the other two were presents from brother; love how he always gives me books on my day hehe). It's a little black dress book, which I simply adore. I remember when the old lady and I were at PageOne because I needed new reading materials. I saw their cute little section for LBD books and I insisted on buying one that I've read before. But for the life of me, I simply couldn't recall the title of the book. It was such a wonderful read, I even borrowed it twice. I never borrow books more than once, that's how awesome the book was. I was disappointed, to say the least. But it's alright, any LBD book is a great find. Oh, and I can never stress enough how fabulous PageOne is ;~;

Hm, packing for camp is never a joy. I'm always so unsure, even with a packing list. Seriously, what the hell is smart casual!? I googled it, but the results doesn't seem to be very camp-y to me. I am a clueless idiot.

This long posts habit might be staying for awhile, I'm sure. It's just so addictive. On top of that, the thought of rereading them on boring days is so enticing. Is that even the correct adjective to describe it? To hell with it.
Fang's up .
XOXO

lack of inspiration

2011-09-23T00:16:00.005+08:00

I think it's time I sat down, and do up a proper blog post. My entire blog just screams; I am a big ball of laziness. And when assignments come piling up, I struggle to form proper sentences. I blame the easy access to social networks for that. I'm forever on my BB, typing out short updates on the various social networking accounts that I own. (Oh, and in case anyone was wondering, my FB account has been reactivated due to certain people /sigh/) Whatever the case, I just hope that when the new semester (or is it term? hm, forever confused about this) starts, I'll be able to adapt. -insert sounds of agony here-

Currently, I have a 'things to buy' list. Which my wallet disapproves of, I'm pretty sure. First of all, I need new clothes for school. I went online shopping the past few days and I chanced upon a great blogshop. I'll probably do a little post on them once I get my buys. But in the mean time, can I just squeal at their collections!? Everything is so gorgeous (ugh, you have no idea how much I want to type 'gorjes') and school-appropriate. I just want to buy every single piece that's available, to be honest ;~; (this is my inner bimbo talking)

After that mini-spree, I hopped into bed and instead of giving my body the much needed rest it deserves, I'm clicking on the Twitter icon on my BB faster than you could say crazy bitch. Well anyway, a girl on my timelist is kind of a partner with the various fansites. SHE IS FOREVER TWEETING ABOUT THEIR FANGOODS AND I WAS SORELY TEMPTED. I won't go into detail but let's just say, I caved. I'll do another little post about the fangoods once I've received them (which will be in Nov/Dec, just a head's up).

The third item on my list is presents. Right now, I only have two people in mind. The first is my bestf (I refuse to type it out, it looks much more qt like that) and I honestly do not know what to give her. The second is my brother. Oh my god, can I just briefly mention how terrible of a sister I am!? I didn't even know that we shared the same bias. I was furiously ranting about this on Twitter (hehe).

Fourth item is dollymag! Ever since I discovered its existence, my life has never been the same again (cliche but whatever). So far, the only place that stocks them is PageOne. Which is all the way at Vivocity. I guess it's a good thing that it's so inaccessible because Dollymag isn't a local magazine. Not a local mag = pricey.

(Breathe, you're almost at the end of the list hehe) FIFTH IS JUNKFOOD, FYEAH! It's not a necessity, but I don't think I'll be able to last through my new timetable without them (yes, the timetable for next semester is bullshit). A few junkies which I think are essential are mints, pocky and cup noodles. If I don't have enough cash for this, I'll just wait until parents go grocery shopping then hehe.

I've mentioned how I'll (hopefully) be making little posts to talk about my buys. At the same time, I want to be able to show you guys my loot too. And this won't be possible without a good camera, in my opinion. Sure, I could use the webcam but the quality is TERRIBLE. So, the last thing on my list is a good camera. To be more specific, a Canon EOS 1100D DSLR. If you're wondering, I am an absolute idiot when it comes to DSLRs. I've never held one, much less use it. I'm hoping that the salesperson(?) won't probe about my experience because I'll be a stuttering mess. I'll figure things out back in the comfort of my bedroom, thankyou. And even if I'm stuck with the terms or whatnots, I can easily ask around. I JUST NEED A CAMERA UGH.

Not a 'things to buy' note, but my left arm is sore. Everytime I move it (like, raising it to tie my hair), it hurts omg. It's my last jab and I am elated that I'm finally done. Those three jabs were pure torture. Dad told the doctor that I have a needle/injection phobia. Being the geek that I am, I actually googled it (was this close to citing wiki but my writcomm lecturer would have killed me lol).

Trypanophobia is an extreme reaction of fear to the use of needles in any type of medical environment. While many people experience some degree of aversion to receiving a shot at the doctor’s office, persons who suffer from trypanophobia tend to take on levels of anxiety that can result in the occurrence of a panic attack. This extreme aversion to needles can lead to serious health issues, as the phobia will motivate individuals to forego medical treatments and tests that involve the use of a need to inject medication or to take blood samples.
Retrieved from http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-trypanophobia.htm

I can actually see this happening to me. I fainted once from a blood test and I will definitely shy away from them for a long time to come. Is that bad? :/

Okay, that's basically it. I'll still be typing out short posts, but from time to time, I'll do a lengthy one like this. And yes, the amount of times the brackets appear in this post is annoying. Learn to deal with it. It'll be appearing more often in the future.
Fang's up .
XOXO

squiggly lines

2011-09-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

O man, I want a bedroom like this.
Fang's up .
XOXO

corset and laces

2011-09-19T22:36:00.003+08:00

Splurge.
Fang's up .
XOXO

i like cheese

2011-09-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

Think of the pillow as me, so when you're sad, hug the pillow like you're hugging me. So I'll always be with you in your time of need.
Aw ♥ ;~;
Fang's up .
XOXO

sweet dreams

2011-09-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

Today was tiring.
Syaf's house is so gorjes tho ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

daydream

2011-09-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

Someone needs to slap me. Hard.
Fang's up .
XOXO

bumblebee

2011-09-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

Nail polish time ^^
Fang's up .
XOXO

furry sweaters

2011-09-13T17:10:00.002+08:00

Nothing interests me anymore.
Will I really spend my holidays staring only at the laptop :/
Even the internet is boring now, tch.
Fang's up .
XOXO

misunderstood

2011-09-12T00:21:00.003+08:00

Oh, before I go to bed (and continue tweeting hehe).

I LOVE YOU, WHOEVER IS READING THIS ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

monster doodles

2011-09-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

And my day is over.
I can't help but feel a little bitter because a certain few do not rmb my day.
A certain few, whom I sincerely care about.
Ohwells, that's life.

Have a good night rest, everyone! ^^
Fang's up .
XOXO

230.

2011-09-11T23:33:00.002+08:00

Today went better than I expected.
Sure, I still had to clean dishes and serve people.
But I thoroughly enjoyed myself ^^

Started the day with bestfs.
(I sort of want to end it with them too hehe)
Tried to sleep, but legs were aching for no reason.
Didn't get to sleep until around 4am.
Woke up at 12nn, feeling super groggy tbh.
Laptop-ed all the way until around 7ish.
Usual birthday celebration with family ♥
Then, a sudden influx of guests came.
I almost died, helping Mum in the kitchen.
Oh and parents were so embarrasing, kept talking about me!
Cousins who came, bought me cake sobs ;~;

Thankyou to those who wished me through the various means! ♥
There is a significant drop in the number of wishes this year hehe.
I like it this way :)

17 is such an annoying, yet memorable age.
To me, it's the agonizingly slow period before I feel more adult-like.
One more year /sigh/
Until then, HEY GUISE I'M FINALLY 17! ^^
Fangs up .
XOXO

/hops/

2011-09-11T00:25:00.003+08:00

R gave me a mushy text, am gnna miss her so much sobs ;~;
K called and then gave me 100+ notifs from spamming my FB wall -.-
A sang a birthday song through MSN and FB (MORE NOTIFS YAY) :{D
O man, I love my bestfs ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

happy birthday ♥

2011-09-11T00:01:00.003+08:00

It's finally the 11th of September here.
Yesterday was perfect tbqh.
I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
Fang's up .
XOXO

SWCSG

2011-09-10T22:49:00.001+08:00

BEST PRESENT EVER TBH.
I'll never get a more perfect present in years to come.
110910 ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

expensive

2011-09-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

Less than 24hours to SWC.
FUCKING STOKED TBH.

Ystd night was horrible, but I'm fine now.
Invited 4E1 girls for Sunday, not sure how many will turn up tho :/
Restless.
Fang's up .
XOXO

roadkill

2011-09-08T23:40:00.002+08:00

Spent the better part of today with bestfs.
Ate at Thai Express for the first time.
Chose a non-spicy dish but got tricked to taste the tom yum ):
They said that it wasn't spicy since it's clear.
Liars.

Movie-d Smurfs and Crazy Stupid Love.
Smurfs was insanely qt, I swear.
As for CSL, the guy's not much of an eyecandy.
BUT WHEN HE TOOK OFF HIS SHIRT OMG UNF FUCK ME PREASU

Reached home = instant mood-killer tbh
Not excited for SWC whatsoever.
On top of that, Mum told me to invite several friends on Sunday.
Can I like, not? :/
Fang's up .
XOXO

what happened last night

2011-09-08T04:22:00.003+08:00

Ah, I'm getting sleepier, which is good.
Eventho I have to wake up in 4hours time.
Better than nothing.
Fang's up .
XOXO

blink twice

2011-09-08T03:49:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep sobsu.
Meeting bestfs later.
I NEED SLEEP FOR WHATEVER WE'RE DOING LATER )-:
Fang's up .
XOXO

oinkoink

2011-09-08T03:11:00.001+08:00

OMG I'M SO HUNGRY TBH.
Fang's up .
XOXO

dock

2011-09-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

Apparently, Mateus' gf is jealous of me.
No wonder he hasn't been talking to me lately.
Ohwell, I shouldn't have expected things to remain the same.
On that note, I've deactivated my Facebook account.
Now, he can only contact me via MSN or email only.
Which is quite pathetic tbh ):
I'm sort of regretting it, but I really don't want to go back.
Sobs, decisions.
Fang's up .
XOXO

HERO HERO

2011-09-06T23:00:00.002+08:00

Thinking of doing something to my hair once it's longer.
Dip-dye/ombre hair is interesting tbh.
Buttttttt, I will have to bleach my hair.
If I'm doing that, I would want to get it done at a better salon.
Like, I don't want to severely damage my hair just for the cost :/

I don't even know if ppl still visit my blog anym.
OHWELLS.
Fang's up .
XOXO

of surprises, presents, donuts and fastfood

2011-09-06T20:43:00.003+08:00

I was taken completely by surprise today.
Went out of the house and polymates came out of nowhere.
SINGING THE BIRTHDAY SONG.
Gosh, talk about a birthday surprise.
I love them to bits, thankyouverymuch.

I think, this year's will be a blast.
It's not even my day yet and I feel so blessed.
4 more days to the present that I gave myself (hehe)
I wonder what the 5 days leading to my day have in store for me ^^
Fang's up .
XOXO

TMI TUESDAY

2011-09-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

Deleted this entire post hehe.
I really should stop blogging late at night.
Fang's up .
XOXO

PETITE

2011-09-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

've been updating everyday so far.
SEMANGAT OI.

Am in a fairly good mood nowadays.
I feel a little more confident about myself.
And no, I don't mean in terms of my appearance.
(Because I still feel fat and ugly. Hell, I AM fat and ugly)
I'm speaking my mind more often.
But that doesn't mean I'm more reckless with my words ofc.
It just means that I'm a bit more vocal with my opinions now.

ILOVEEVERYONE ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

SUMMER NIGHTS

2011-09-04T22:06:00.002+08:00

Grease is the best movie out there, hands down.
Eventho the moral is basically to change for other people hehe :3
Fang's up .
XOXO

FIGARO

2011-09-03T23:51:00.004+08:00

I'm glad I told him off.
Now, I don't feel like I have to pretend/impress him all the time.
It's like a burden that has been lifted off my shoulder.
Cliche much, but I can't describe it any other way.
I'm happy :)
Fang's up .
XOXO

DSL

2011-09-02T01:22:00.003+08:00

Vivo with old lady yesterday.
No luck with varsity jackets, again ):
But bought two magazines and a black little dress book!
I'm a happy bookworm.

Gnna start ignoring him.
He's hella annoying.
Fang's up .
XOXO

commiting a crime

2011-09-01T01:48:00.003+08:00

The first of September.
For some reason, many of my friends were born this day.
Half of them, I wish I've never met them.
But if I didn't, I wouldn't be as strong as I am now right?

In the past, I've made decisions which are plain stupid.
This tops it all tbh.
O man, and bestf is not online.
I want to cry so bad, but I'll wait.
/sigh/

Hesitated for a very long time for her.
In the end, I caved and wished her.
Even tho our friendship can never be how it used to be.
I hope the memories that we shared will be as precious to you as they still are to me.

Bad start to the month?
Nah, I like to be positive.
I'm just learning new things everyday :)
Fang's up .
XOXO

September, please be good to me.

2011-09-01T01:37:00.002+08:00

September has always been my favourite month ♥
I think this year's will be fairly good because;

a) it's the holidays
b) my day hehe
c) FUCK ME I'M GOING TO SWC OMG
d) gg to TCP which I signed up for voluntarily

I love Septembers sfm ide ;~;
I'm hoping my love for this month will encourage me to blog moar hehe.
Fang's up .
XOXO

i write sins not tragedies

2011-08-31T00:22:00.001+08:00

This is me trying to look like my cousin.
But obviously, I fail.
Bcs she's pretty, slim and gorjes; EVERYTHING I'M NOT TBH!
Fang's up .
XOXO

knock knock knock

2011-08-22T21:11:00.003+08:00

Take 10.
Fang's up .
XOXO

that's not how you wear the thong, darling

2011-08-15T18:31:00.002+08:00

On a completely different note, I'm so hungry.
An hour more :3
Fang's up .
XOXO

picture in a frame

2011-08-15T18:20:00.003+08:00

School has ended.
Left with two exams on Fri/Sat.
Original plan for today: Study
Obviously, it didn't go so well.
The phrase 'Not in the mood' has been abused too many a times by me.
I'll just end this with a All the best to myself, aye.

And here's a recent photo of me.
Idek why I took it, but I did.
I know I'm fatter, so ugh shut up.
And no, I'm not fishing for compliments.
Just stating what I see.
Fang's up .
XOXO

killing spree

2011-08-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

I am so weird, I swear.
Go finish up your assignment, jeez.
Fang's up .
XOXO

captive

2011-08-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

Feeling down bcs of something that was said to me earlier.
Wow, ppl should really think over their words before they spew them out.
It doesn't help that I have an assignment and a group project to finish tdy.
All along, I thought the assignment was due on Friday.
So I thought I had an extra day to complete it.
BUT OF COURSE THE WORLD HATES ME OR SOME SHIT JFC.
SUCKS TO BE ME TBH.
Fang's up .
XOXO

DANCE

2011-08-02T17:01:00.003+08:00

Waiting for 7pm ugh
I WANT FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
I'm such a pig oinkszxc
Fang's up .
XOXO

first day

2011-08-01T11:32:00.003+08:00

I'm hungry ngl
I hope 7pm comes fast OTL
Fang's up .
XOXO

tear your sandcastles down

2011-07-31T20:54:00.002+08:00

My heart hurts.
It feels like it was dropped from a skyscraper.

Sweetpea, I sound so emotional.
Get a grip, Izyan.
Fang's up .
XOXO

PHILOSOPHY

2011-07-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

Stuck at the same point for two hours ald ):

On a random note, I really miss talking to you.
I'm so busy with work nowadays that I'm neglecting ~~my social life~~.
Oh wait, I don't have one.
...

I MISS YOU :/
Fang's up .
XOXO

progress

2011-07-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

Ignore my previous posts.
I just needed to get it out of my system.

've been waking up with terrible headaches for the past few days.
On some days, it feels horrible to be alive.
Coughing non-stop, the leaky nose and the fucking pounding in my head, ugh.
Today, it's not so bad.
Just a little flu and a bit of a sore throat.
I don't look nor sound sick, so I guess it's a plus.

And uh, joined XPDTARI (finally) ~
Didn't go today, bcs my contacts dropped out during yoga.
And anyway, I didn't feel like breaking the news to them just yet.

On that note, I'm really pissed at her.
She told S that I persuaded her to join.
I checked our conversations and I most definitely did not PERSUADE you.
I merely asked, "Oh hey, want to join with me?"
AND GUESS WHAT YOU SAID; "CAN UH"
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETCH
TELL ME WHICH PART OF THIS CONVO DID I FUCKING BEG YOU TO JOIN?!

Here's to the diots who think they can lie their lives through -'-
Fang's up .
XOXO

that really awkward moment;

2011-07-19T21:47:00.002+08:00

When you're pissed at everyone.
Even if they're innocent and didn't do shit.

I'm tired.
My body is tired.
My mind is tired.

I want to stop pretending.
PLEASE.
Fang's up .
XOXO

be abused

2011-07-19T18:36:00.004+08:00

Screw you .
Fang's up .
XOXO

happy birthday, mateus ♥

2011-07-16T00:25:00.005+08:00

I know it's been quite some time since we last talked to each other.
I guess it's mostly my fault since I avoided MSN the past few days.
(And I prolly will for the next two weeks or so; assignments -sad face-)
Hope school's okay so far and, pls tell me it's not another holiday tdy!

/ahem/ I digress. Anyway.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING ^^
I reallyreallyreally enjoy our conversations.
And I like how we have absolutely nothing in common.
If I ever get the chance to go to Brazil, I'll visit you. Promise.
Teach me volleyball someday!

I think it'll be weird if I wish your twin too, meh.
Fang's up .
XOXO

papercut

2011-07-08T21:08:00.002+08:00

One thing after another .
Mum's had me frightened for a few days .
Last night , at around midnight , it happened .
Results will only be out on Monday .
Hope it is not anything serious .
After all , Pa is our sole breadwinner .
Fang's up .
XOXO

hood up, heads down

2011-07-08T16:11:00.003+08:00

Craving for Macs .
But I'm broke , tch .
Fang's up .
XOXO

hug me once

2011-07-07T20:52:00.002+08:00

Lost a couple of people in my life .
Idk how to get them back tbh .

Just , play along with me okay ?
Fang's up .
XOXO

wasting time

2011-07-05T21:19:00.001+08:00

I am obviously very bored rn .
Fang's up .
XOXO

feeling your kiss

2011-07-05T21:04:00.003+08:00

HELLO I'M LOOKING FOR A BOYF LULZ
I KEED \(^^)/
Fang's up .
XOXO

i'mma make it up to you

2011-07-05T20:56:00.003+08:00

Finally learning something during ITA; Photoshop
But even that is boring atm, we're only learning the basics.
HURRY UP AND MOVE ON TO THE MORE IMPT STUFFS TCH
/breathes in breathes out/
Fang's up .
XOXO

bloodshot

2011-07-02T15:58:00.001+08:00

Eyes are begging for mercy. Skull is pounding against the head. Laughters are such shallow sounds. The world is a constant blur.

I know. My body knows.
Will it change anything tho?
Fang's up .
XOXO

scrolling in the deep

2011-06-27T04:29:00.002+08:00

CDEV test later at around 1 .
Wish me luck .
Fang's up .
XOXO

oh hai thar i'm on my sexaye bb :B

2011-06-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

I don't care if you're gnna take away my laptop. But if I get a fail for any of my modules bcs I didn't do any assignments, don't blame me. I fail my module = I repeat my module = you have to fork out more money. Not my fucking problem.

I don't see why I can't have a 'me and opparz' time on the weekend. It's bad enough that I have to deal with preschoolers everyfuckingthursday (I have nothing against them but it's getting boring when all you do is just observe). I just want to be able to enjoy kpop alone. Without someone begging me to borrow my earpiece (wtf gurllllll, get your own I know mine are fucking sexy but dear lord so unhygienic ide). Without some bimbos gg all "oh I like the rock bcs he's so muscular" bitch idc just shut your trap. And certainly without some know-it-all trying to be a goodytwoshoes and being all dramatic and ohsoexaggerated. Bitch prz.

My beautiful life.
/pukes dinos and bunnies/
Fang's up.
XOXO

we're just a fantasy

2011-06-02T19:22:00.003+08:00

That awkward moment when the person you hate regards you as her friend .
Fang's up .
XOXO

♥

2011-05-28T21:47:00.001+08:00

I really hope we'll last for eternity .
Love you girls ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

IN WRITCOMM TUTORIAL

2011-05-23T11:49:00.003+08:00

It's boring but it's important
It still doesn't make me want to listen tho .
The module is so similar to English class that it makes me puke .
Such a dry module idek okay .
Fang's up .
XOXO

hidup seorang ibu

2011-05-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

I'm not happy .
Fang's up .
XOXO

blogging from phone

2011-05-11T15:13:00.001+08:00

It feels weird to be blogging from a device other than the laptop/computer. But eugh, I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't have this sudden urge to update. To make matters worse, the laptop battery just died on me so I have to resort to this horrible device -cue laughter-

I have a terrible stomachache rn and idk okay, her behaviour is soooooo not helping ):

Still have one more class at 4 later. SAVE ME PRZ.

in ITA class

2011-05-11T10:30:00.003+08:00

Being taught how to use blogger .
Teacher is trying to figure out some shit idek .
Why do I even have this module ?!
Today will be a long day :/
Fang's up .
XOXO

revival of the undead

2011-05-09T21:29:00.002+08:00

.______.
HAI I'M BACK .
TEEHEE .
I LOVE MY TUESDAYS .
FRIDAYS SUCKS .
K DONE BAI .
Fang's up .
XOXO

le introduction

2011-04-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm a socially awkward dinosaur that goes by the name of Izyan ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

gear up

2011-04-27T12:52:00.004+08:00

I drafted this post while waiting for my second (and last) class today .
And I conveniently forgot about it , heh .
Well anyway , school has been manageable so far .
Just received our first assignment (for a rather stupid module) .
A simple introduction about ourselves .
Poo , why do I even have this module in the first place --

Only a two hour class tmr .
Yessar , can wake up late ^^
Fang's up .
XOXO

BBM

2011-04-23T23:19:00.002+08:00

I finally got THE new baby ♥
I practically killed myself in the process okay .

Orientation was (Y)
Classes start next week , nervous ~
I hope I made the right choice .
Fang's up .
XOXO

new race

2011-04-16T00:41:00.002+08:00

No , the previous post was not a mistake .
It was meant to be like that .
I'm not gnna tell what it's supposed to mean .
I'll let whoever to interpret it themselves (:

All my efforts were wasted .
Should have known .
My naive self -laughs-

Okay so .
I'm a nervous wreck .
I hope orientation will turn out fine .

I feel lucky like a four leaf clover ~
Fang's up .
XOXO

down the drain

2011-04-15T21:22:00.001+08:00

Fang's up .
XOXO

OTPLOVE

2011-04-10T00:35:00.002+08:00

Breakfast with TM was refreshing ♥
I totally needed the change in surroundings .

Happy mode , pfffffffft .
Who the hell am I trying to kid .
LISTEN UP YAWZSXC ~
Gg through a rough patch rn .
I practically live in my room at the moment .
And the laptop is my only entertainment .
If anyone needs me (lol as if) , just buzz me up .
I'll talk , but prolly not about my problem .
If we're not on good terms , don't even bother asking , I won't answer .

Gtg to bed naoz .
Bcs my hypocrite parents told me to sleep early .
I LOVE MY PARENTS SFM (:
Fang's up .
XOXO

dr.feelgood

2011-04-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

You got my hopes up , only to crush them seconds later .
Why is everyone so cruel to me ?
Fang's up .
XOXO

master list

2011-04-08T09:21:00.002+08:00

Deleted a few notes here and there .
Edited posts are back up .
Tore up a bunch of useless crap I wrote .
In a nutshell , my happy mode has been revived .
Fang's up .
XOXO

i'm chingy's superhero

2011-04-06T22:06:00.004+08:00

~~Tired .~~
1/2 done , come on baby work faster ~
Fang's up .
XOXO

top shelf

2011-04-05T22:35:00.001+08:00

I feel so detached .
Fang's up .
XOXO

minty

2011-04-04T14:54:00.003+08:00

Parents were in a good mood ystd .
BOUGHT: TWO PAIRS OF JEANS , ONE JEGGING , TWO TEES , ONE COTTON SHORTS
I found out that I'm a size 26 for denizen jeans uh-huh .
My cotton shorts is so cute omgod asjgfahfkagfafj
PLUSPLUSPLUS , IT'S GREEN ~~~
Hell to the yea (Y)

I might just be paranoid (like I usually am)
But I think my parents found out/know .
They started talking about how it's impt to stay healthy even if one is fat/chubby .
FAT/CHUBBY = ME RN OKAY
Fang's up .
XOXO

brand new kiss

2011-03-30T01:07:00.002+08:00

It's gone .
The positivity , I mean .
I feel all deflated now .
Which sucks big time .
Fang's up .
XOXO

two hos , one wood

2011-03-29T23:36:00.003+08:00

I can feel my cheeks heating up .
I wonder if ppl can actually see me blushing ?
Since I'm quite tanned and all .
Blushblushblush ~
It's so wrong , but still so cute at the same time .
Ugh , conflicting feelings (N)
Fang's up .
XOXO

tippy toes

2011-03-29T16:18:00.002+08:00

Meowf ♥
I feel refreshed today !
It feels like nothing will be able to bring me down .
I hope this feeling lasts for awhile .
Need more of this positivity in my life ~
So many temptations right now .
I'm trying my best to adhere to my plan .
All the best to me ^^

F yeah , bitches ! Official NP student here ~
Fang's up .
XOXO

fluffy

2011-03-28T00:45:00.007+08:00

I feel all bubbly inside .
Let's call this girl I just got to know , as Y .
Y was feeling a little down after a bad day .
I saw her being all moody and since I was free , I talked to her .
Idk if it made her feel better , but she sounded happier .
Totally love it when I can help someone be un-sad ♥

Oh , and I have the cutest online pal okay , be jealous ~
Fang's up .
XOXO

intuition

2011-03-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

Giggling to myself while eating tofu = obvious kpop addict ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO

oh shoot

2011-03-26T21:35:00.002+08:00

I made the mistake of agreeing to watch a horror movie w Sister .
Why Izyan , why --
Fang's up .
XOXO

I lost a friend

2011-03-24T23:10:00.002+08:00

Her frail body underneath an oversized jumper .
What secrets are being hidden from the world ?
Fang's up .
XOXO

in my room

2011-03-20T19:44:00.002+08:00

Society's expectations ♥
A month , that's all I need .
Fang's up .
XOXO