too pretty to frown ▼ moon and stars eyesmile

As much as I want to spend today just lazing around ,
I have to go back to the literature texts .

Suddenly , it's so important to me bcs I've dropped combined humanities .
Xuan Wen was discouraging me from it .
And it was difficult to convince her that I really can't do it .
All my life , I've been taught to be the best .
And now , life throws a stupid subject that I can never score in .
Yet another obstacle that I can never overcome .
It might be cowardly of me to just run away from problems , but I don't give a F .

Eventhough Parents have never voiced it out , I know .
I know they think I'm useless .
Brother is a genius , he's like that guy in our batch .
They get good grades top the cohort , effortlessly .
What about me ? I struggle day and night just to get a decent grade .
And every Saturday , I have to send him to his religious class .
For God's sake , he's 10 already .
Mum insists that he's careless whenever he's crossing the road .
Yea , make that boy dependent on us .

Sister thinks her life is unfair . I've read her blog .
There was a particular post that stood out .
She talks about how Parents didn't let her go to an overseas trip .
Whining away about how I was granted the permission two years ago .
My trip was cancelled anyw , so why bother Sister ?
If only she knew . If only she knew .
Mum and I were having a heart-to-heart talk about her yesterday .
She said that Sister was delusional , wanting to get into the express stream .
I just kept quiet . I know she can do it , it's just that she's lazy to study .
I even made a bet with her three years ago .
If she gets a higher aggegrate than mine , I'll give her 10bucks .
And I know she remembers the bet .



Ohwell . I should stop whining so much .
So far , O's has been tricky .
English was the usual , but I managed to finish my essays .
I'm pissed at myself for the careless mistakes in maths papers .
Please oh please , at least a pass for Chemistry .

Pfffffffffft , why must I feel depressed at a time like this . Such bad timing .
Fang's up .
XOXO