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HAPPY NEW YEAR ♥
Photo of Sister and I for the first post of 2011 .
This post will prolly be a little lengthy , so bear with me ~

First of all , I just want to say that I'm proud of Sister ♥
Her PSLE aggregate was enough for her to enter the Express stream .
But Mum and I discouraged her from gg into E .
I'm not being mean or whatsoever , but I know her .
We've been sleeping together eversince she was a baby .
The first few years of our childhood , the whole family slept in the livingroom ~
So technically , we HAVE been sleeping together all these years .
Well anyway , what I'm trying to say here is that she hates studying .
We're always accompanying each other late at night to complete our homeworks .
And I don't want her to suffer like how I did .
So , I'm glad . I'm glad she took our advice (:
Oh and yes , she's in Swiss .
Funny , bcs she's been hearing me complain for four years heh .
Geeeeeeeeeez , I have to get used to saying our , instead of my school now .



The other day , a closefriend of mine was sort of depressed over something .
And to make matters worse , her bestf wasn't around .
I brought up a topic , but it turned out to be the cause of her emo-ness .
I felt extremely bad , ofcourse .
Tried cheering her up , and I'm glad I made her laugh a little .
I feel the happiest when I'm able to bring laughter/smiles to people (:
And this , led me to seriously consider being a volunteer somewhere .
The only problem now is my parents approval :/



I've been on a rollercoaster ride with love last year .
Eventhough it ended bitterly , it was still a sweet memory for me .
He was the first ever guy to sing a song for me .
You were the first guy to ever boldly say those three words to me .
Eventhough those three words turned out to be lies .
But , everything happens for a reason right ?
I learnt a few lessons from this bittersweet experience .
For all that , thankyou A ♥
Oh , and I'm sorry for calling you a little fucker in my previous posts .



I've been single for 16years .
Fallen in love ? Sure . But being in a r/ship ? Hell naw .
I was madly in love with someone a few years back .
But obviously , God loves you more .
We didn't make it official , bcs of my parents .
I've moved on but sometimes I regret my decision .
You're my first love and always will be , rip ♥



I really hope that my r/ship with Parents will improve this year .
I've been a rebellious daughter all these years .
I hate myself for that .
I'm trying my best to change now ♥



The loss of my dearest grandmother affected me in so many ways .
Nenek was the reason why I've been strong .
She was the reason why I attended celebrations .
She was the reason why I'm studying .
She was my world , my life .
Now that she's gone , everything seems to go wrong .
Why can't I score higher in my exams ?
Why must I disappoint my parents all the time ?
To make matters worse , I lost a bestfriend this year .
What did I do wrong in our friendship ?
I miss the old times , when everything seemed perfect .
I miss my grandmother terribly .



I'm better now , ofcourse ♥
Friends and classmates played a huge part in this .
Seeing Mum stay strong despite her loss also made me stronger .
I now see things in a more positive light , or I try to .
I'm glad I didn't do anything regretful .
Or I would have missed out on a lot of stuffs (:



I've made new friends during the holidays .
They helped me realise certain aspects about myself , which I'm really thankful for .
I'm gnna finish this entry with a few photos of myself , heh .
Hope that 2011 will be a better year for everyone aye ♥
Fang's up .
XOXO